[[ EDITED @ 01:53AM ]]Pernah kita kecap bahagia
Menyulam kasih menyemaikan cinta
Engkau ku cintai engkau jua ku sayangi
Kesetiaan ku jangan diragui
Kita pasangan bahagia
Ku yakin cinta untuk selamanya
Kita merancang Tuhan jua menentukan
Kita ditakdir tidak bersama
Runtuh harapan dibina
Kerana engkau jadi miliknya
Bagaikan kaca terhempas je batu
Hancur luluh impian suciku
Ku sedari kedaifan diri
Tak selayak berganding dengan mu
Walau teguhnya cinta mu pada ku
Engkau tak akan jadi milik ku
Yang ku miliki hanyalah kesucian cinta
Kesetiaan yang tiada taranya
Harta pangkat ringgit yang berjuta
Bukan jaminan membina bahagia
Hanya sekejap nikmat bahagia
Cinta kita putus jua akhirnya
Pada mu jua ku serahkan segala
Aku hanya insan yang tak berdaya
Cinta mu hanyalah sementara
yang ku miliki hanyalah kesucian cinta; kesetiaan yg tiada taranyaaa..P/S: the song says it all. minus the one i striked off. :(_________________________________________
AHHHHHH CUKUP !! CUKUP !!Can someone please just shoot me DEAD arr. please eyy.....sick&tired seyy.POOOKIE tol !!Okay fine i removed the previous entry. i know alottttttttt of you read it alrdyright right. O yeaa but no worriesme & danny are still frens. MERELY FRENS. damn it.i may be advising, i may be givinghim the strength to move on, i may bethe one who are willing to type outpages of sms just to cheer him up, imay be the most semangat creatureon earth, i may be the one who basuhhim rabak2, my words may be so encouraging, i may be the one who have to endure his cries cause of thatbloody faggot ..BUT !!Who in the world thought about how
i actually felt? about how difficult it
is to cheer him up, to make him realise
she has done shits and is still doing so.
about how hurt i felt whenever we met
and he went on & on & on about her.
about how he made me his 2nd sparepart,
about how things are SOOOO different
now. the most important of all, no one
knows about HOW I CRY AT NIGHT
WHEN ADVISING HIM; just TO MAKE
HIM HAPPY. sometimes i just wish we
dun contact back, it hurts. how difficult it is
to endure my tears whenever we met, howdifficult it is tell him to be strong when memyself cant take it. hati aku tuhan je tau.
Its really difficult my dear friends. yes,previous entry i was delighted, was oncloud nine. keyword: WAS. just for thatone day i felt dat way. i didnt know i havtaendure more painful sights, painful words,painful stories. oh god.if this is what a one-day-happiness mean,i swear i would rather be myself last time;before all this pops out. hais. i'd rather bethe lonely me, the happy-dua-minit me,the girl wif fake smile, fake laughter. at leasti dun have to face the actual fact. so much forasking him to accept the fact; FUCK IT . howhurt it is wen people start asking, "kau ngnyan da okay? yesssssaaaaa !" korg yessaa abeaku ape siak ??!!! =(All back to square one i guess. only that we'refriends for now unlike last time, enemies. frenspun frens la eyy. at least i thank god for this altho i knoe chances are slim. very slim. i will go wif theflow for now. yess we do meet often; infacti just reached home after meeting him. but themeet-ups are just so mundane and boring attimes. all about the motherfcuker assswipe !!yan promised me something, which i hope hewill fulfill it. my god i just wish things wont bethis complicated. driving me nuts.if this is karma, oh god i had enough. pleasedont torture me any further ...... i had my piecefrom you, i need no elaboration. =(ENOUGH ARR, ENOUGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuffi had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuffi had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuffi had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuffi had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff.....Shoot me dead, readers ! im soconfused. blearghh.I NEED MY SUPPLY & DOZENS OF KOKO CRUNCH !!!&& ALVIN THE CHIPMUNK is finally out in theatre !maybe dat will cheer me up? :))Labels: confused, mopused (mopused bpkkao) =(((
Weekends are so-so. slalu gini tau !if i planned it oh-so-well, the resultwill turned out ugly. dats the why ihate plannings. i prefer to go wif theflow. damn it. bosan, bosan !!
Saturday was spent working only for 5short hours and then straight home. atnight meet bestieover at bukit batok and off we wentto her aunt's place at simei. her cuzin'swedding. peh jauhhh. hehh.
The big day came, wahh so the many people. so hot, humid, rimas. had fun eating, wuahahha makin cute aku. LOL.K watever after everything ended thought of going wawakiss's pit. but when i lookat the time, mcm wasted seyy. damn i missed it !! so sorry darlingg. =( so i went down to PS (sempat ehhh !!) wif the big heavy bag. met up wif lembik and the trolleyboy. dgr dgr ramai org skali due ketul aje. bosan !Ehh if you happen to drop by PS, comedown CF and buy the E-AJI nachos !! damnniceee. we bought lik 5-6 packs siaa. gelojohnak mampos. hahaha. but serius sedapppppp.i kasi 5 'O' !!Not only the nachos, dgn durian2 skali ade.picnic kepe waii !! wuahahaha. mcm biase satoutside 7-11 till closing. got chocolate, durian,snacks, polar, big gulp, slurpee. naseb takdenasi lemak ke mee siam ke.. lau ade da bleybentang tikar. buat kenduri sikit. ahahahaa !!
After closing makin ramai la org turun. levis,lonsdale, cotton-on crews were also there. kiterpakaliao jadi nak beli baju org kata ade diskaun.*ehemm best kan. hahahahaa. when the wholegang was there, then comes the kecoh part .....The trolleyboy tried hard, indeed he tried toooo hardto main giler wif me; which was a total FAILUREof course, cause he tried wif the wrong person. youwouldnt wanna see how i treated him after that. "kau sial, buat dier macam binatang." - mas.You can imagine him saying sorry sorry sorry for3 solid hours non-stop hits, sent me 20+ messageswhen im just infront of him. this is still nothingcompared to a point when he picked up my winebottle and knocked his head wif that till he bled. imstill there, i didnt shift place or what, i still sat rightinfront of him, looked and ....... BOLAYAN !!! thecolleagues and others are those who got so scaredand pestered me to just forgive him. HAHH, beingwho i am, takde ahh. i ignored even mama, ibu'spleas to just 4give him. ISHH, TAK DAPAT SEYY !!&& you can imagine how the wine bottle flew uphigh in the air and landed wif a nicee piaaaannnggg !and its the white wine you knoe, the small brownbottle. DAMN FRAGILE .. and swee2 came 4 policemen who's doing their rounds in the wee hours. wooo cool kepe aku yg kene pasal nak selamatkan nyawa org. pantat !! lau tau buat bodoh je siak biar dier continueketuk2 sampai mampos. but lucky the policemenunderstands me and let me go. just a lil screen hereand there. naseb baik ehem s'pore, if not ..... 200 melayanggg mcm kertas. HEEEEEEEEEE*Suddenly i feel so0o0o0o bloody tired. mane naklayan org giler, mane nak listen to the colleaguespleas, mane aku yg kene maki. DAMN IT !! noone's by my side seyy, padahal aku tak bersalah. hurr.so i decided to go home, to get rid of all thesenonsense. abe member masih kat situ, dahh akuyg kene marah lagi. bodoh nye lahabau ! pasalnak balik, i cincai-ed. "oh sorry eh, ok ah sembarang.bangun la sial takmu jadi bodoh duduk sini ngn kpalakau darah2. semue nak balik laaa !!" HEEEEEEE* and so dgn jinak-nye member bgnmabok2, hp jahanam. went to the taxi stand, suddenly he u-turn back to outside 7-11 or wherewhich i dun care. i pulled mas and lembik in andasked apek to drove off. wuahahahaahahahha !!!Kan aku da kata, u got the wrong person to test test test the patience level. and i didnt knowsumone would get so obsessed wif me just bcozi didnt forgive him. & its the first time evera FREN cried because of me. if he's my bf or wad i understand. but fact is, just a colleagueseyy. WOW, am i that cool or whatt.watever it is, aku still rimas ok, RIMAS !! iwanna work in peace, have fun and no enemiesnor things dat may stressed me up. you maysay its my bad...K watever, im doing wad i thinkis most vulnerable to get rid of thesestupid people. i dun need them. i wanna be myself. now i realised its better for me to beleft alone; even if it means being lonely. elsewhen unexpected things like this happen, therei go again ruining people's lives. with or withoutthe intention to. DAMN IT. pikir aku sukerrbuat ni macam !!! haiyaa.I blogged this not to brag about how i ruinedpeople's lives, no, i got better things to do. thisentry is just for me to recap on wad i did wheni looked through my archives in years to come.why is it so, when i need someone, the personjust vanished so easily but when i just dun needanyone, everybody seems to be so interested.why god, why? i need an explanation.Thanx to that one person, who got me toostressed up; to this extend. thank you so muchfor being there and then vanished. so muchfor all the promises and encouraging words.for all the times i've been there when u needsomeone. for all the deeds and reactions datmake me think you're my last. for all the hide-and-seek all these while. continue playing this game, i shall join you.For now; i will go with the flow wif wateverthat will happen. & believe it or not, im hopingfor a miracle to happen and got _________ backto my life. so that i wont be riding this never-ending rollercoaster ride; ever again. ridiculous it seems. but patience is virtue. though virtue actuallyhurts. god's willing, insyallah.p/s: im curious as to why people would actually 'report' it to me whenever they saw yououtside wif your new gf. & its irony i alwaes bumpedinto you when you're alone. why, why ??Take care people, i'll be back wif more interesting stories to share if there's any. oh andthanx so much if you read up till this point. all wordsand so little pics. oh myy what happen. tillthen ........
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