Pernah kita kecap bahagia
Menyulam kasih menyemaikan cinta
Engkau ku cintai engkau jua ku sayangi
Kesetiaan ku jangan diragui
Kita pasangan bahagia
Ku yakin cinta untuk selamanya
Kita merancang Tuhan jua menentukan
Kita ditakdir tidak bersama
Runtuh harapan dibina
Kerana engkau jadi miliknya
Bagaikan kaca terhempas je batu
Hancur luluh impian suciku
Ku sedari kedaifan diri
Tak selayak berganding dengan mu
Walau teguhnya cinta mu pada ku
Engkau tak akan jadi milik ku
Yang ku miliki hanyalah kesucian cinta
Kesetiaan yang tiada taranya
Bukan jaminan membina bahagia
Hanya sekejap nikmat bahagia
Cinta kita putus jua akhirnya
Pada mu jua ku serahkan segala
Aku hanya insan yang tak berdaya
Cinta mu hanyalah sementara
yang ku miliki hanyalah kesucian cinta;
kesetiaan yg tiada taranyaaa..
P/S: the song says it all. minus the
one i striked off. :(
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AHHHHHH CUKUP !! CUKUP !!
Can someone please just shoot me DEAD
arr. please eyy.....
sick&tired seyy.
POOOKIE tol !!
Okay fine i removed the previous entry.
i know alottttttttt of you read it alrdy
right right. O yeaa but no worries
me & danny are still frens. MERELY
FRENS. damn it.
i may be advising, i may be giving
him the strength to move on, i may be
the one who are willing to type out
pages of sms just to cheer him up, i
may be the most semangat creature
on earth, i may be the one who basuh
him rabak2, my words may be so
encouraging, i may be the one who
have to endure his cries cause of that
bloody faggot ..
BUT !!
Who in the world thought about how
i actually felt? about how difficult it
is to cheer him up, to make him realise
she has done shits and is still doing so.
about how hurt i felt whenever we met
and he went on & on & on about her.
about how he made me his
about how things are SOOOO different
now. the most important of all, no one
knows about HOW I CRY AT NIGHT
WHEN ADVISING HIM; just TO MAKE
HIM HAPPY. sometimes i just wish we
dun contact back, it hurts. how difficult it is
to endure my tears whenever we met, how
difficult it is tell him to be strong when me
myself cant take it. hati aku tuhan je tau.
Its really difficult my dear friends. yes,
previous entry i was delighted, was on
cloud nine. keyword: WAS. just for that
one day i felt dat way. i didnt know i havta
endure more painful sights, painful words,
painful stories. oh god.
if this is what a one-day-happiness mean,
i swear i would rather be myself last time;
before all this pops out. hais. i'd rather be
the lonely me, the happy-dua-minit me,
the girl wif fake smile, fake laughter. at least
i dun have to face the actual fact. so much for
asking him to accept the fact; FUCK IT . how
hurt it is wen people start asking, "kau ngn
yan da okay? yesssssaaaaa !" korg yessaa abe
aku ape siak ??!!! =(
All back to square one i guess. only that we're
friends for now unlike last time, enemies. frens
pun frens la eyy. at least i thank god for this
altho i knoe chances are slim. very slim. i will go wif the
flow for now. yess we do meet often; infact
i just reached home after meeting him. but the
meet-ups are just so mundane and boring at
times. all about the motherfcuker assswipe !!
yan promised me something, which i hope he
will fulfill it. my god i just wish things wont be
this complicated. driving me nuts.
if this is karma, oh god i had enough. please
dont torture me any further ...... i had my piece
from you, i need no elaboration. =(
ENOUGH ARR, ENOUGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff
i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff
i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff
i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff
i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff i had enuff
.....
Shoot me dead, readers ! im so
confused. blearghh.
I NEED MY SUPPLY & DOZENS OF KOKO CRUNCH !!!
&& ALVIN THE CHIPMUNK is finally out in theatre !
maybe dat will cheer me up? :))
Labels: confused, mopused (mopused bpkkao) =(((