♥ ACAH seyy

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Ah!
Whateva!

I may seemed HAPPY in a second, but not the next.. Mood swings is 24/7 in me. and now it swings to a sickening attitude. as per normal, FUCKED UP dot com.............

SAY IM NOT UNDERSTANDING.
SAY IM A DISTURBANCE.
SAY MY ATTITUDE SUCKS.

Bla bli bluuuuuuuuu. i DON'T give a damn! I AM WHO I AM. u wanna change me? GO TO HELL. yups. u DO change me to a better person. THANK YOU.........

So much complaints?!! why? are u a physicologists or watever??? if not, then SHUT UP. i know im cruel. and YOU KNOW IT too. so just do wat ur supposed. dont do sumting that make my HEAD FLY OFF. or else u'll regret lyke NOW.

YOU KNOW im hot-tempered. so STOP pestering for things lar! i've had enuff.. ENOUGH means enough. and NOT MORE pls. ur making me in a erupt-ing condition. im a VOLCANO ok? oh yah..... PLS BE GENTLE WITH ME.

One more. DON'T call when u think u need to put down in about 1/2 hrs time? might as well DON'T talk at all rite?? arghhhh! yah IM CRUEL. say wat u want. ITS ME, the irritating gurl u've known several months ago. yada yada yada........

IM OFF................
BYE!!!!! DON'T talk to me when im in this condition.

PLEASE!

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Weehee` Im in school and im dead bored. actually we're dismissed but i nvr go. i need to finish up this coursework. actually im done but i still nvr leave. i need to check on my friendster and stuffs. actually im hungry but i never eat. i need to leave this school first b4 eating. buahahaas! im NUTS ok?

Kk.. lets move it/on. yesterday reached home at 12+am. my family and i went GH to see one of my aunt who's hospitalised and in ICU and in critical condition. ish! im actually ~~scared~~. ops. no im not. haha! we went GH twice. first trip was in the afternoon when the sun is very very strong. and the weather really sucks. humid. VERY. keke. oh yah. that tyme my aunt was at ICA. its different kay. then we proceed to town. my bro bought a new fone. duh! haha. and we ate at centrepoint. after sometime dad received a call and got to know my aunt has been transferred to ICU. gosh! my heart went dup dup dup.. ~~scaryyy~~. no im not! hakss! so. we rushed back to GH. but unfortunately, we cant even enter the ward. after waiting for HOURS, dad and uncle managed to persuade the nurses and enter. but not me. by then, its already 11pm. i almost slept on the oh-so-comfortable ~~chair~~/sofa. but lucky never thanks to dearest ayg who called to ask whether im home.. hehe. after tired of waiting, i told dad why not he send us home first as i've got to attend school tomoro; meaning today lar. he said ok and discussed something with uncle. it was a very sad moment when we're about to part. dad told uncle not to think too much as his wife will be ok, insyallah!.. then, dad hugged his bro and i saw uncle cried. i almost cried too. its a sad moment okay. its critical. not normal. b4 my aunt was transferred to the ICU, i managed to take a glimpse of her condition. its oready teruk. it was VERY hard for her to breathe. she's gasping for air. i was scared. no i wasn't! haha. ermm. there's oxygen tanks. there were needles poking almost every part of her body. and her face, hand and leg was so0o swollen due to the many medicine that went thru her body. haiz. so sad.. now, she's in critical condition. Critical. the word bring shivers down my spine. its lyke she's in total danger now. ish. pls. noo... i dun wish to see my other family members with an unhappy look when we're going off to Brunei this cumin friday. i wan it to b a memorable week/holiday for me. i read a prayer for my sick aunt last night b4 going off to bed; hoping that she'll get well soon. i really pitied her kids, consider as my cuzins larh. they were still young. age ranging from 4-11. i heard stories they wrote letters and drew pictures to their mum about how much they've missed her, that they cant smile w/o her at home, that they're lonely w/o the important person in their lives and etc.. the most sad part is this sentence, "mama, kita semua rindu mama. mama cepatlah baik dengan balik. we need you. kita sayang mama." yarh. something lyke this uh. sad rite? hmm. lets just hope my aunt will be well soon.. insyallah!

Wow. such an emo paragraph up there. haha! but if im in the kid's shoe, i'll be feeling the same. i think it'll be worst. cos.. i've done lotsa sin to my mum. ish!! oh ibu.. ampunilah dosa-dosaku. haha! kk stop ur nuts-ing acah~ nonsense! haks.. k i think i better get going. or else i'll be posting craps. im going home. hopefully ayg wasnt mad. hoping. hoping. hoping. hoping. hakss..

K bye darlingss.. lurve u. keep the taggies in okay. make sure it flows. take care. dun noty2 hor... study, dun play only. LOL. k bye sayangsss... =)

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Im home! yadayada.. its lyke, obviously.. haha. as promised. watched movie with dearest. watched MADAGASCAR. wow! its greattt. so0o blardy funny. err. ok la actually. cos ayg wasnt that satisfied with the movie. and im pretty sad bout it. hahak. to me it was a hell of funny moments. we took 190 and dropped by Plaza Singapura. we're shocked at the fast selling of tickets. imagine this. we arrived around 2:30pm. asked for the 3:10 tix; left with the first row. then asked for 3:20 tix; left with the first two rows. and the worst part is... asked for the 4:20 tix and its left with the first row. oh yah. not forgetting the 5:10pm i tink. also left with first two rows. hahaha! terrible rite? aiyoo. but luck was on our side. suddenly the lady asked us to wait and she said sumtink to her fren. and we got the 3:20pm show at the 5th row. ok la. not so bad. hee. so. bought nachos and went in. hehe. and i lurvee the show la. can resist. i cant understand why ayg kept on saying its draggy. haha. do you think so? to me, ITS NOT! i love it.. k stop it larhs! =)

After the show, headed town. walked all the way there. great.. saw kiki, man, sham and etc. oh yah not forgettin the two besties, khaty and mid. wahaha. sorry gurls. i was trying to get rid of the hot sun frm shining directly into my eyes. haha. confirm muke taik sei aku. hahaha. do i look lyke a retarded fool jumping around? lolsss. nvm.. it was fun larh. walked and talked and laughed and joked and blabliblu.. but this lasts for only a short while. when the sun sets, and moon appears(meaning night oready lah), we fought. haha! cos he needs to go home. that means i've to go home also. but there's no one at my home. so i got frustrated. and being a not understanding gerlfren, i suddenly sat at this bench outside mc cafe. and i started askin him questions. people was lyke looking at us. there's one tyme i was too frustrated+furious and i shouted and then walked off real fast and he have to run after me.. the worst part was wen i saw tears in his eyes when we're toking things out at Taka. i feel so bad. haiz. attitude siak me! grr! sorry dearr.. but i've apologised oready. and he forgave me. hehe! i love youuuu..! =) yeah. he's THE ONLY ONE who can and culd manage my fucking attitude. with ALL the stupid things i've done to him, he stay put and never leave me.

He NEVER shout at me b4.
He NEVER use vulgarities at me whenever he's mad.
He ALWAYS keep quiet when he knows im enraged.
He BEARS with my sickening attitude although he's hurt alot of times.

See, how patient he is.. but me? only God knows. i CAN'T seem to change this attitude. cannot. i've tried but to no avail. its just me. i wished to change. i want ayg to b happy... not hurt lyke always by my harsh words when i got angry.. can i lyke get a counsellor for this? hahaks..

Eh k lar.. i wanna sleep. im so tired.. post again next tyme okie? take care..
Good nyte babies! Mwah~

Ps: Im so sorry dearesstt. ~~i won't do it again~~. I love you kay? Mwahhhhh!
(Wonder why i cancel? cos i've been saying that lyke a dozens of times but still do it. hee! shh!!)

=)

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I ~~was~~/am FRUSTRATED..

NO song!

ANGELFIRE cancelled MY account... Duh~

Nvm.. new song cumin out. IF i could access back to angelfire, that is.

~~FUCK~~.. Fire burning inside.

NO! i shuldnt...

Buahahahas!

K then. im done! Chau Chin Cau~...........

Weeeeeee`

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Weehee!! Today's our 8th month anniversary. yey! im happy. 8th month together-ness was not that easy as wat people thought. there's always ups and downs. usually its more to downs. cos misunderstandings ocurred so0o frequently. it got nothing to do wif not trusting. if u really love that person, ur mind automatically think nuisance and nonsense every minute. peace is no longer in ur head. trust me. this is true. facts frm MY love lyfe. hehe!

Well.. stop it. just pray hard me and dearest will be together for as long as we could. insyallah! kk.. Guess what?? Im down with extremely HIGH fever yesterday. wahh.. its so scary to see myself in the mirror. im so pale. damn! but. alhamdulilah. i ate medicine and it cured by today. hehe! only that im havin a slight headache uh. bcos of my fever, i didnt attend remedial just now. so i've to attend remedial tomoro w/o MC. cos i didnt visit doc. cos i still got medicine. haiz. hoped that those teachers wont be running after me. cos i REALLY had fever. tis aint a joke ok!

I took my Malay 'O' paper on monday. it was not bad. i was rather shocked actually. i thought its that difficult. lucky uh. but i cannot b too confident bout passing. yups i culd pass. but wat im aiming is an A1 or A2 at least. insyallah! the result's out on July. hehe!!!

Oh yarh. happy holiday-ing to those malay kids who're off to KL this morning. enjoy urself aite. actually i shuld be going. but after thinking, i think better not. cos.. 1) i will be missing cyg badly. 2) i've to pocket out money 3) Im already pokai! 4) Im going Brunei next week and that need money. yups.. i've made the right choice. if i were to go. im dead! cos there's no money left. haha! eh.. im NOT money-minded kay? only that.... i've spent too much! grr! k 4get it. have to save up AGAIN. haha...

Did i miss anything? errm.. oh yes. did anyone watched MADAGASCAR b4? isit good? is it a waste of money? cos.. im out this saturday with cyg. to watch movie. i was thinking of watching that cute cartoon. cos both of us lurrrve cartoons.. thats why i need some compliments or criticism bout that particular movie. hehe! so. leave ur thoughts on my tagboard asap aites? cya people. i got to go. wanna sleep. Nyte sweets! Lurve u people loadss.. tatas! =)

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