Weeeee~Juz got home frm skool..damn tired sia.In skool so bored.Got spotcheck summore in da morning.Walaueh..i kancheong oready.ahaha..quickly pull down my skirt as low as possible.funny siak.but luckily my form cher neber caught me.thanx cher!i love you!!wahahaha.Last tyme my hair a bit highlight onie she caught me.now i good gerl.ahaha.phew~afta da stupid spotchecks,we are dismissed to our classrooms.once i stepped into my class,i was frustrated!coz......NO MORE LOCKERS!!fuck!where in the world m i gonna keep all my stacks of books?!haiyarh..sot ar.gerenti class lyke wat sia..books all over da place.wahaha.great2.then got scoldings again.ahahaha.siao..Overall da dae was bored.yes soo bored.Mondae very boring.afta skool juz now went Lot with my bestie.bought things then went homie.
Hey!!!...ahakx.dun read my previous post horx!paiseh sak..tat one i crazie nutin to do so i post nonsense.i dun wana delete coz i dun want.ahahaha.crazie..But da one under 'Ps:...' iz ryte ar.da rest sum real sum i create.wahaha.step sedih jek aku.padahal,padahal..wahaha.So far im ok with him..Alhamdulilah..my target gonna end soon.uuuuu!!30th June lar!ahaha..haix itz onie tat i miz himmmmm.i wanna mit u.but he's werking.duh~boring.ehehehe.k nvm there's still a next tyme..
K la i wanna go out n 'copy' my holidae hws with my bestie.ahaha.not yet finiz seh.haiya..leceh.takmo complain acah.juz do it~yea..ahaha.oryte peepz take care aite.~ciao...

In LoVe,
[acah]

Hie..Juz came back frm Wild Wild Wet at Downtown east.Da place was damn great.Neber hav i been to such a wonderful swimming complex.There's slide all over.High,Low,Large,Small type there.Onie one word to describe..Great!Enjoyed myself veri much todae.i went there with my bestie,her mum,her bf,her younger bro n her makcik's family.Thinkin of bringin my him along but....argh!Fuck!stop it!..haix!We reached there at around 1+.we changed n splash we went into da pools.There's one tyme where we take one of da slides.da queue was terribly longgg.but it was 6 person per float.da slide was damn marvellous.itz lyke a roller coaster to me.Nutin happen oso da 6 of us shouted loudly lyke nobody's business.i guess da ppl's thinking wat da heck tiz family doin up on the slide.when we got down,suddenly everyone n i mean da ppl around us including da lifeguards looked at us with their wat-da-fuck look.we ignored n went for our lunch.then me,my bestie n her bf kept on rounding da 'shiok river' where it brought us round da perimeter of da Wild wild wet.a lot of rounds..hey b4 i forgot,we also went to da wave pool.we hav to wait a certain tyme when da big waves come.then at one point,im lost.my bestie's makciks n family were gone frm my sight coz im in da deep side of da pool.n i didnt bother.i kept on swimming by myself.suddenly while i was looking around for a glimpse of my bestie or whoeva,i felt a tap on my shoulder.guess who?i was damn shocked wen a grup of mats was lyke looking at me n smiling.gawd!malu sakx...then one of them said,'eh amcm minta no. ar buat kwn ke...'then da other said,'aku nak die..ahaha.gurl ade no. tak?leh kenal2?'wadu2..i was pissed off tat tyme.not tat aku jual mahal.itz juz tat im alone n their grup was so big.im oso not in a veri good mood todae.so i ignored them n swam to da more not deep side.da one askin for my no. kept on following me.i went onto da float he oso go up.i climb down he oso climb down.i carry my bestie's cuzzie,he go n carry his bro's child.haix..i was damn bored.luckily at da same tyme fezah asked me to follow her.n luckily he neber follow.he lost sight of me.then bla3 we splash into da 'shiok river' again.n afta several rounds,gawd!itz him again..yes da one askin for my no..i accidently n haf to by pass him coz there's no other way to go thru.he saw me.yah n i haf to walk so near to him coz itz crowded.damn..fezah n her bf was so far in front n while im walking,he looked so long at me.i juz smiled at him n swam quickly.he smiled back n shouted..'yeah!' to his frenz.haix crazie..but then he's not swimming in tat river.coz afta his 'yeah',i heard his fren say,'eh siak ar ni tempat kental dok.ape sak pusing2 dlm laut nie.pookie la da jln ar aku nak main slide.'he was trying to say..'sial ar,aku nak mandi sini.satu round je pls pls.ade die..'but then he went up.n wen i looked back,i didnt see him.n till i packed up,bath n went home,didnt see him.wat a waste!stupid me...nvm itz over niwae.there's still a nxt tyme.
Gawd!!..n tiz story will bored all da ppl especially me n u who's reading tiz.i've got no one to turn to except to post n luahkan all my fucking feelings now.haix~k la b4 anytink i wanna say sumtink,sorry for all da boredom aite.if u dun wish to read,pls click on da x at da top right hand corner.it gonna b pretty long i guess.but i dun knoe..we'll see layta.k lemme start.i got tiz prob.u realised i didnt type a single 'hee' or 'ehehe'.coz tats how im feeling now.no more laughter.even if there's laughter frm me,itz not straight frm my heart.my heart hurts too much.n itz suffering.haix haix!wanna knoe y?mayb it culd b a silly reason to u,but not to me..itz bcoz he neber call me for 2days.or make it 3 days since last 3 days he called juz to say he gonna get back to werk tat nyte.so he didnt hav a chance to tok to me.haix~y muz he make a reason for tat?n y didnt he call me for da past 2 days?including todae nyte.or murnin?ah wateva it is lar..if onie for yesterdae he neber call,itz still ok.i can accept it.but da dae iz adding.it culd stretch till foreva n tat mean i've to let him go silently.i hate silent break-ups..totally sucks!itz a crap to me.but if it realli happens,haix wat to do.i cant b setia all da wae till my lyfe ends.of course i've got to find a replacement.no!no!dun tink too far,acah..itz juz a miserabla 2 days he didnt call.not a week.haix itz gonna b terribly extremely worse if it reaches up to weeks.i dun knoe how im living afta tat.hey itz my dialog wen im heartbroken or susah hati.dun mind aite.haix haix..yesterdae i juz cant sleep bcoz of him.really.i slept at around 4+ afta forcing myself to bed.i duno how tat work.n todae i duno whether i can sleep anot.mayb can juz bcoz im tired of swimming juz now.but my heart wont sleep.it'll stay overnyte till he call.haix.n i wanna make sure he gave me a right reason..k la i guess itz till here onie..i dun wish to sad myself.n do silly,crazie things to myself.haix..to those who've read till here,thanx kie.i appreciate it even though if u've thrown bad remarks on me as lyke silly me to b sad bcoz of guys.but haix.see,no one knoes my feelings.nvm..let it b.oryte all..take care.niting feel free to hola at me k.
Arghhh!!..bcoz of tiz i fought with my mum.Cibai kau jantan!!buat aku gile!she came in to ask wat im doin.n i said,'ape laaa..org main comp kan.takmo mepek ar.dala kua ar.rimas sak org tua kat dlm.sana laaaa.kluar!!!!'n i wana threw stacks of cd at her but i stop it.phew!alhamdulilah i didnt do it.haix..im sorry mama.haix..k by ppl i wana cool myself.

Ps:Haix..i've targeted 3 weeks u.3 weeks aje.u knoe y.but i dun tink it'll last.n YOU've targeted 6mths da least.Gawd!u make me cry too much,boy...ur way of saying 6mths was so sincere.but it wasnt.i knew it.or probably guess it.i love u boy but i dun tink u felt da same.haix..there's no use of me living if im repeatedly getting heartbroken.arh fuck it!wat a hell of lyfe im leading on.juz b patient.bye all...

Fucked up mood,
[acah]:'(

Elo everyone!im back frm my holidae..had a great tyme in Malaysia.I lurve Genting!da wheather(iz da spellin correct?ahakx~)was damn cold.i lyke!i lyke!itz been yrs since i step into genting highlands.now,they've modified it to a better place.no more scary bridges n longkangs.there's one place called Genting Theme Park.wow!tat place was extremely wonderful.u wont regret when entering it even though u hav to pay quite an amount.itz heaven,u see..wahaha~but too bad,i didnt hav a chance to ride all da rides as itz either short of tyme or itz damn scary.yea n i mean it..My bro took da Spaceshot where da thing will bring u soo soo soo high up then down veri veri fast.pressure!u wont feel ur weight wen they throw u down.itz a waste i didnt take pics of my bro takin tat machine.but nvm,there's alot of others.i'll upload it once i've developed it aite..as for KL,not much to say.onie da mat2 there veri funny.there wana kacau gerls by step coughing lyke tat.nvm bout tat.i didnt bother anywae.ahakx~i lurve da twin tower in KL.although i've seen it yrs back,but its quite long though.my bro n i was planin to go up da skybridge but we cant.itz maximum iz onie to 800 people.Skybridge iz a bridge tat cuts thru da two twin towers.damn high..too bad bro.not our fate..ehehe
Hmm,once i reach spore,i smsed my bestie.miz her sooo much!ahakx..too bad we cant see each other while in Genting.coz wen u came back,im juz goin there.hehe..tomolo she wanna mit me but then im thinkin of meeting mamat.darn!miz him soo much too.think of him every nyte frm da first dae i enter Malaysia..wakaka~rabaknye aku.ahaha..i wan to plan with him bout tomolo.but then see la,i asked him to call at 1215 till now my hp neber ring!aiyooo..mayb he's asleep.juz now he called at 1130.tok with him for a while then i hav to hav my shower.so i asked him to call at 1215.haiya~i told him i wana mit him tomolo..haix~duno lar..wait for his call 2molo.if not then i mit my bestie arh.yea2~ahahaha..k la ppl.im damn tired now.n sleepy too.can u imagine da journey frm KL to Spore took almost 8hrs?!walaueh..8hrs inside da train.i sleep,wake up,sleep.wake up,dinner,joke around,sleep,wake up n still not yet reach!ahahaha..nvm itz over.itz great niwae.oryte im blasting off...peace out~ciao

Ps:YaN,we went there but didnt ride on da roller costa.coz itz damn expensive..RM25 per head onie for several rides?much better to enjoy in Genting.i took pix onie..ehehehe.for kenangan.take care yan!

Missing him badly,
[acah]

Tiz will b my last post b4 i go for my holidae aite..hmmx 2molo im goin at 8 in da murnin.we will b takin da bus ar.i wana see da suasana JB.maklum la kan da about 7 yrs tak masuk.gerenti jakun nye aku..wakaka~juz now went to mit mamat.i go Khatib with hayati,my former classmate.then mit mamat at da ctrl station then he take us to his house.afta reaching,we lepak2 first.got 3 of his frenz.once i come in i saw one of his fren gone oready.da mabuk..hey shhh sori i cant tell further.We watched PoNTiAnAk dAn DoT dOt DoT.funny sia da story...Da cik pon eat ice-cream..wahahaha~hmm then we listen techno,make it lyke a disco then joget2.then 3 more of his frenz joined.They on dangdut n they dance2 again.wahaha!!great sak juz now..had a great tyme.Boy,dok lama2 klu panas byk anak ehk?wahahahaha~!takpe..MePeK tEtAp DiLaYaN~yea!ahakx..then around 5+ they pack their things coz they gonna ton at sembawang park todae till sundae.haix!so meaning he cannot call me todae till da 21st.walau so long sia..nvm chill~around 6+ we bla frm there then i hav to mit his mother.then wen aku nga salam,die blg mak die..'mak,ni la matae mamat.'I was so shocked.wakaka~then his mum emosi siak afta tat.hee dun tell me his mum dun lyke me suda.wahahaha.veri garang his mum.scared sia..we waited for all of 'em to get ready then go home but they're so slow.my friend hav to go home coz she got to fetch her adeq frm skool.so mamat n one of his friend,granate,send us..ahakx.they waved us goodbye then bla..then mamat shout to me,'bye sayang..'..then tiz granate oso shout..'bye sayang'..wahaha.ape jer nat.ahaha.k la peepx i wanna pack my things.not yet pack lehx.gonna die if my dad find out.wakaka~k nvm peace ppl.Miz me many2 k.coz i Will miz everybody esp. him.ehehehe..take care.~ciao......

Jb,KL aNd GeNtInG,hERe I cOmE.................Weeeeeeee~

Holidae mood,
[acah]

Elo all..yesterdae went to my bro fren's pit at east coaste park.quite great ar.although im da onie gal there at first.there was about 19 guys.n im da onie gal.can u imagine tat?aiyo..damn bored siak at first.but luckily da guys friendly.they joked around with me..at least got friend.then bla3 my bro's fren came.a gal..yes lahx!i knoe her in skool but didnt tok much.alwaes smiled to each other onie.at around 4+,while da guys are playin soccer,me n syazwana,my onie partner start off da bbq.we bbq chickens n hotdogs n nuggets.nyce man!but veri funny.soon,alot more guys came..wadu i was lyke,lack of pompan siak.wahahaha.at nyte,around 8+,i was damn extremely bored alone.syazwana went home.n left me n my bro's frenz.n all are boys again..duh~i barin in the tent then suddenly all daboys come in siak..walaueh!siak tol..then they shake2 the tent.sial arrr.i maki2 them.wahaha.very lyke wat sia.then suddenly i got a call frm fika n tat iz oso fucker's ex.she said bout tiz2 tat2 then i sot oready.as i say ryte,i stead with fucker's friend n tat is my ex too.so i patch with mamat last 3 days.then yesterdae fika said tat mamat got other gals..mak ai!!again!i was damnnnn heartbroken.sot sak otak.then when mamat called,i tok to him ar.i was soo sad.my bro saw me in a bad mood n he neber kacau.hee thanx bro!then my bro told me he's staying overnyte there.so i tell him i wana go home.not in da mood.at around 12midnyte,da bdae boy's dad took us home in a lorry.
Now im ok with mamat...yeaaa~ahak but im not sure bout he arh.mayb he two timed me lyke fucker or watsoeva ryte.nvm ar dun bother.yesterdae on the pone i tell him ar if got other gals tell me..then he say tiz..'syg,i syg u sorg jer.i seriuz takde matae lain.i ungu u 3minggu tau b4 u break dgn yadi.u nak i sumpah?depan name mak bpk i?depan Al-Quran?depan abg,kakak i kat depan i nie..u nak bual dgn them ker?'beh i neber layan his sumpah2 thingy.ahakx..then tok2 then ok oready now.
k la all me wana get ready n mit mamat b4 i go 4 my holidae..ehehehe.peace out ppl~ciao...

Holidae mood,
[acah]

hey hey hey!!!!....if u see closely,u'll see tat i've deleted majority of my post tat iz bout tiz fucker.yeaa i called him fucker coz he's a real jerk!!tiz will b my last tyme posting bout fucker aite.hmm tiz fucker yesterdae called me n said what ive done to his 'gal'..ur shocked?nid not b shock.coz a fucker iz a fucker.hmm he was toooooo stupid till he gave his 'sayang' no. to me with the intention to ask me to sms her n tell her to call him.but i smsed differently.i asked her wats her relationship with him.she said she stead with him...yea im ryte in the first place.i've tot bout tat afta 1 week im with him.then i called her up n she said she's sick n tired of him with other gals...there,i told u...A FUCKER IZ A FUCKER!!then we planned on meeting him up n tok.but then she cant make it todae.so in da morning juz now,we conferenced n tok.she called when im sleeping so when i woke up,my mind's blank.i didnt said much when actualli there's alot for me to say.damn!nvm itz over...I love it!ITZ OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ahahaa i've been crazie man!then he's lyke crying for me back.......fuck u lar!!!!ur cry wont bring me back,MR FUCKER!!!!..

wat u think if i tried on my ex.wahahaha....yea my ex iz my fucker's friend.wat i knew frm fika,tat iz fucker's former gal,who also got bastard by fucker at the same tyme as me,tat my ex iz da same as fucker!meaning they hav da same attitude.so i wanna try on him n see how long i can stay..yes lah!if realli he's got da same attitude as fucker..oryte then!da jadi two fuckers unite together!!yeehaaaaaaaaa~wakakakaka!i'll try on my ex..cant wait to see wat happens.wahahahaahha...yea im bcomin crazier everydae...i cant wait to go out of S'pore!!i wana leave all tiz crapz here n enjoy myself there!no more sorrow for me...yes lahx!!!!!!!!!!ahahahaha.wahahahaha....k la i wana go out n mit up my new boi.wahahaha..siak tol aku cepat nah tuka jantan.k nvm juz try on..n see wat happens.i tell u all aite..wakakaka~peace out ppl~ciao

Crazie gurl,
[acah]

wei!..ahakx yesterdae had a terrible fight with him...weeeee~im so happy i won!he called me n started tokin bout tiz gurl.i kept quiet.sabar..then he sang da song bout married.i 4get da song.got one part'kawin dgn siapa?'..then he lyke mumbling but i hear wat he's tokin.he said out da name of tat gurl he's tokin about.i was lyke,cibai peh jantan..ahaha.then i kept quiet.i say..'oh dektu.bagus ar gi kawin eh jgn lupe jemput tau.buat kat ane ar?bwh blk uma u eh..wa mesti grand kan.bez gitu.'he lyke suddenly shock i lyke tat.bla3..but ryte stupid sak i lyke tat summore wan say,'ayg..i love you.'wahaha.i say back..'ahaa u sala org la..patut nak kate tu kat pompan tu kan.beh terckp kat i.wahaha..'then he change mood oready.he say later he call back.at nyte,he called.bla3 n tiz tyme fought very rabak one.ahakx!i kept lyke sindir2 him bout tat gurl.bla bli blu then he hot oready he shouted at my ear...'ehh apesal dgn u nieee!!leh bual depan perr'i say back..'eh i tak pekak laaa.nak bual depan?bsok urun sini larrr.or nak i dtg sana?mane satu?ckp arr.'then he say he busy la bla3.i said back..'siak ar ni la jantan..uruh bual depan org danak turun kau tanak.kental tolx.takya madang busy la.oh yah i tau u nak kua dgn pompan tu kan..'wahaha.then he kept quiet.then summore fight arh..bla3 till he fed up n say wanna eat.then afta tat i called his house n ask for his friend's no. n tat is my exx too.i lost contact him.haix~then till now siak he neber give,grrr..aku nga hot je nie.sabar lagik.juz now he called n bla3.yesterdae nyte i got sms ar if got pompan lain takya nak simpan2.juz now he say,'ape maksud u nie semue?'i say no meaning itz juz for me to knoe for u to find out.aku da malas nak bual dgn die tadi..so i kept quiet n he say he wana call tat gurl.waaa da brani kau bual depan aku tu mcm.k takpe aku diam jerr..beh letak pone.n die kate nanti die nak call blek..k juz wait.aku nak nenok ni ape perkembangan die dgn pompan kesygan die tuu.wahahaha.
Sial ar sot sak otak aku...smlm takle tdo sakx.die buat aku gile jerrr.grrrrr!aku da tanak maki2 agik.smlm da byk aku maki.wakaka~mcm2 yg tak popular nye maki pon aku main soot jer..wahaha.gile2...k tak pasal ar.skg ni i want my ex no.!!!nione kenal mamat yishun?former yio chu kang sec?...wadu2.kdang2 menyesal gak aku accept ni jibon.ahakx.(sori mida terpakai word ko lak..)takpe sabar jer..skg ni gerenti die nga bual dgn pompan die..wahaha.hot je aku.jgn ampai aku meletup sua.dala aku no mood ni.nanti type mepek2 da lain cite.k peace out ppl~ciao..wahaha nak peace ke hape.

In an indescribable mood,
[acah]

Gd murnin all!!..ehehe.walaueh,i slept at ard 2.30am then woke up at 9.30 sia.i felt giddy now.not enuf sleep i guess..heex!tiz murnin i woke up to da sound of drilling.stupid contractors!!early hours drill here drill there...noisy siak!eh luckily im not da type who lyke to complain u knoe.if i tat type i complain u kena not my prob arr.ahaha.afta i woke up,i search for my hp.itz gone!damn!ahakx...i search everywhere,on my bed,under my bed,on top of my bed.waaa so tired..juz woke up muz search for hp.adding to tat,my bed iz da double decker one.da one got two.so i muz search on top n below.then below queen size.ahakx..can die siak.then i frust oready i take my home phone n call my hp.wakakaka!u knoe wat?da hp iz juz on the computer table!!!wakaka!i smiled to myself for being damn careless.i charge it last nyte n leave it there.ahahaa.when i check my hp,i saw two sms.i open n itz frm my bro.wakaka~i was damn shocked when he said,'ayang da tdo ehk?sori eh klu tadi i sakitkan ati u.sori sayang..'wakaka~wtf?then i open another sms n itz frm him again.he say'eh asap!sori eh sala send....'wahahaha..i was half dead while reading da first sms.wakaka~haiya....mcm2 arh satu2 nie.ehehe

hey i cant wait for da bbq pit at ecp tiz Thursdae!maybe i ton there with my bro n his frenz n my bestie if she can.yesterdae i asked my mum whether can overnyte there with my bro.hee i was thinking she neber allow.but then she said,'boleh..tdo je.dgn abg kat sana.nanti bsoknye blek ar.sbelum gi kene pack ulu.12haribulan kite danak jln..'then i was lyke,tol ke mak aku ni?ahakx..she usually neber allow me to overnyte here n there w/o my parents.but for tiz,ahakx..hee thankx mama!i love u..wakaka~wa acah part ni jer sayang mak ehk.wahahaha.great man!!wakaka.but then my bro didnt allow me to bring our guys along!darn!ehehehe.but i hope at nyte IF we ton there he allow us to.then i can ajak my ayang to ton together if he wans la.ahakx..haiz.now i not yet hav my breakfast sak.soo hungry.no food in the kitchen..weeee~my mum's cooking nasi goreng!!yes lahx!wakakaka~ later i got to go two jemputan.one iz my fren's bro n tat iz also my neighbour ar since she stayed at da same blok.but of course la different unit n level.wakaka~so da jemputan iz onie under my block.ehehe.now i can smell nasi briyani!!n ayam merah!n dalcah!(wakaka hey tats my name!!!)n more food..wakaka~afta goin tiz jemputan we got to go for another one.itz my dad's sister in law's bro.wakaka~i duno la who..juz follow n eat.ahakx..afta tat i guess we're going other places.ala but my bro not following siak.haiya gerenti bored.i cant live w/o him.ahakx..he's my crazie partner man!!darn!since fridae when he went for his camping,da house was not as noisy as when he's at home.i n him will 'switch on' our crazie brains n tok cock all da wae..n tat makes a very noisy house.happening beb!!..wahaha.now tat he's not at home,im alone.onie joke around with my younger bro n mum.ahakx.but still not bad since my mum's too a joker lyke me!!wahaha..hey k la i dun wana tok crapz onie.wana taste my mum's nasi goreng!!yum yum!ahakx...jemput mkn semue!ehehe.peace out ppl~ciao.......

In a happy mood,
[acah]

Haix!!!Im sooo sad.yes damn sad...feel lyke cryin all day.yesterdae he smsed me when i was watching Hindustan.he asked me wat happen to me in the evening.ive calm down n as i said in yesterdae's post,i wana mengalah n let it b tat way.i dun wana fight with him over a third party.let him hav wat he wishes for.yah let it b..haix!then i replied tat i juz wana knoe who's he's callin.then he called me..he say wat happen.tat moment i was damn extremely happy.coz i got to hear his voice.but he sounds not happy.haix!i was tellin him to wait while i got up to go inside my room but he put down da fone instead!oh man!my heart shatters sudddenly..i sms him n ask him why he put down da fone when i was tokin to him.n he never replied till now.not even a call.haix!wats happening to me?i was supposed to mit him todae.but bcoz of a stupid me askin for trouble,i dun tink he'll want to mit.hmm itz ok.juz b patient.i cant really sleep last nyte.kept checking my hp..haix!why muz all tiz occurs?its ruining my lyfe.n i dun lyke it.whenever i got tiz kinda probz,i alwaes feel tat im so far frm da rest.so far frm da world.im in a world of problems,alone.with nobody to tok to.with no food to eat.with no drinks.with problems all over me.shattering heart.100 sighings.yes,all alone in tat world.soo saad.wat shuld i do?call him?i dun tink he got his hp with him.his house?i dun even tink he's at home.so?haix!juz wait n c wat will happen..i dun wana lose him.realli feel alone now.i've got no other solutions except to wait anxiously for his call.n i will say sorry.even if he's in da wrong.nvm..let it b.let him hav his wish.wateva it iz.haix!k la i've got no mood now.peace out ppl..~ciao

All alone,
[acah]

Todae will b da worse n terrible dae i've ever had..all thanx to him!haix!im over depressed.i meet him ard 1.30 at khatib as per normal.we went to his Yishun house n lepak2,watch 'aku kaya'.it was fun tat moment.he's damn manje with me..we laughed,sweet talks n etc.eat together..haix!!but then at ard 5.30,when im sitting listening to songs,he asked for my hp n say wana make a call n call his FRIEND.ok fyne i lend him my hp.he went inside his room.itz fyne.but when he closed the door n LOCKED IT,i became suspicious.isit a friend he's calling?if it iz,why in da world muz he close n locked da door.cant he tok outside?ok then afta everytink,i calm down.when im putting on my shoes,he asked me whether i wana go home first anot.i was puzzled!yesterdae he told me tiz way,'u bsok umpe ar..i borin.da tu u follow me gi persembahan kat Boon Lay k.'..i meet him todae n then tat moment,he asked me to go home first n go Boon Lay all by myself..oh fucker!!!!!!wat are u tryin to do?!wat a guy are u..fark off!haix....im sori all for using too much vulgarities.im juz tooooooooooo depressed.y cant he juz say it out to me tat he wana meet sumone else b4 goin for his persembahan?why?haix..afta tat my mood changed.im damnnnn,sooo frustrated+sad,but more to frustrated..while walking to da busstop,he fooled ard with me as usual,hoping i will laugh or watsoever.but im sori boy,u've hurt me too much n i wont even smile to you.adding to my sadness+frustration,in da bus,instead of him sitting beside me,he sat BEHIND me....walaueh!!nobody knew my feelings tat tyme.on our way,i suddenly stared at the open air blankly n tears dropped.I love him so much n he did tiz to me?wats my sin to u,boy?haix..n now im hoping he'll call tiz nyte n i wana settle these things with him.i dun wana lose him.itz been 4 mths or so im single n alot of other guys wants me,but i chose him.cant he appreciate tat?im sooo sad now.no more frustration.i feel lyke jumping down frm da 30th storey n die.i dun wish to keep on living if he's treating me tiz way.afta alighting da bus,i didnt tok with him.not even a word.u see,we hav to cross the road to get to da opposite then to da mrt station.i juz crossed w/o even looking to da right or left.a car was dashing damn fast.it hit my leg but luckily it break at the right tyme.b4 tat,he shouted at da back but i ignore him.how i wish i was knocked down tat tyme.so he could knoe his new FRIEND closer when im no more in tiz world.seriuzly,tat car was damn fucking fast.although it hit onie my leg,my whole body vibrates.afta got hit,i walked slowly summore.he pulled me n say..'asal ni ar?da gile pe nak kene langgar?'then i say..'apesal u tanye?eh ask urself la..btw u leh gi ajak pompan lain gi persembahan u.i wont go.'then i walked off,leaving him behind.when im on my way up da escalator he looked at me with his 'apesal-dgn-dekni' face.then he waved me goodbye but i looked infront.i saw him sighing but juz ignored.im pissed off tat tyme.n now,afta thinking for awhile,i realised i shuldnt treat him tat way.at least smile to him,acah...haix!nvm itz over anywae.c,how strong my love for him iz..i dun wana lose him.yeaaaa.i DUN wish to.n i mean it..haix!y muz tiz happen?part and parcel of a love?im damn sad now.his persembahan usually end at 10.according to my watch now,itz 22:04.he probably reach home at 11+ latest.haix..i really hope he call me todae.k la im in no mood now..peace out ppl~ciao
Im sorry ayang for wat happen juz now.Didnt mean to hurt u..haix!i love you lots!!muacks~

In despair,
[acah]

HeY all....watcha doin?im waiting for him to call.Linca la call!!ehehehe..im damn bored here.tats y i decided to post.hmm,todae i goin out with him.n tomolo too.todae mayb i goin to watch him persembahan.at Boon Lay MRT.aiyoo..c la,he say wana mit at 1 n now he not yet call me.juz now he called when im havin shower.haiya~.ni mcm kul 2 je la u.wakaka~jgn nanti die call n ask 'u da kua?' suda ar..mati lom siap agik nak kua.ahahaha.haix!!cepat la call....call,call,call,call,call.wakakaka~siao sakx.dala i got no other things to say.

Hey!!to my fren..ieda,hav a great holidae aite.miz ya gurl.when u come back itz my turn.ehehe.dun tink too much on ur probz ya.take care n enjoy...we'll miz ya.~ciao.

With lotz of love,
[acah]

weeeeeeeeeee~my 2nd post for todae!!wakaka~according to my watch,da tyme now iz 23:45..n im not yet asleep.i juz cant sleep..grrrrr~frust arh.miz him sooo much!ahakx...he's sleeping now i guess.haix hope he doesnt repeat wat he did juz now.u knoe wat?afta i mit my bestie's makcik at hospital(wakaka fezah!shh tau sal hosp ni..ahakx~),we went town.me,her mum n her younger bro..we walk2 there for awhile.im not looking forward into lepak2 there but looking realli forward for my hp to ring!!waiting desperately for his call...man!no one knew my feelings tat tyme.kept on looking at my fone.u can call me insane or crazie.as tats wat i am probably.wakaka~ya crazie over him.then afta we jay-walked frm wisma to lucky plaza,my fone rang!yeehaaaaaaaa~im extremely excited to pick up.adding to my excitement,itz him!weeee~ahahaha.[hey!bear with me aite..being crazie in da moment..]but then,as stated,when there's happiness,there's always sorrow.n yah i heard his voice so very the different.u knoe wat?im sure u duno ryte?wakaka~Haix!!He's drunk!!fuck!im damn pissed off..i kept on telling him not to drink n he persist on it.arghhh!i kept to myself n doesnt show my anger to him.tok with him as per normal..he tok nonsense all da wae.me,as a 'friendly' person,juz layan him lorx.ahakx~tats wat i am,u see..wakakaka~we took 190 back here.im in no mood tat tyme so i wana go home.all bcoz of him!grrr!cant u understand tat i hate ppl hu betrayed wat u've said/promise to me ONCE?yah,once n tats it.u've said/promised n i'll make sure u did it da way u said/promised..grr!nvm chill acah.tiz juz da beggining.but i hope it will end very2 soon.im juz being patient..all bcoz of love.isit stupid?duno.cant predict da future...hmm n now wat crap m i tokin about?haix..k nvm ayang,itz ok with me.juz dun do it again aite?love u lots!wakaka~hey as if he can read tiz..ahakx!itz ok..hey hey hey!!!itz 00:05....yeehaa~shuld i sleep or not?i tink better to sleep.2molo not goin out as da tv shows are great!!..i'll b glued to da television tomolo...ehehehe.oryte peepz.peace out~!!

with lots of love,
[acah]

'Boy,meets girl.u were my dream,my world.but i was blind.u cheated on me frm behind.so on my own.i feel so all alone.now i knoe..itz true.im still in love with u...i nid a miracle i wana b ur girl.gimme a chance to see tat u are made for me.i nid a miracle pls let me b ur girl.one dae u'll see can happen to me,can happen to me..'

Ahakx!!tat song stuck in my head..i knoe tat song a few weeks ago.when he alwaes on it whenever i tok with him on the phone..his room became a disco place.ahahaha.can imagine it..haix!ayang,ayang.wakakka~hee yesterdae i meet him at Khatib.im damn late sia..i went out of my house at 12.30 sharp.he asked me to wait for him at khatib mrt at 1.i tot Cck to Khatib quite near but when i step into da train,n looked at the board,i was shocked!wakaka~itz so far away...6 stops away i guess.or 9.hmmx cant remember.when im still at da cck station,not yet step into da train,he called me n say he reached oready.mak ai!!i was lyke....wat?!so fast?ahakx~so tat mean he hav to wait for me for so long..ya so long.wakaka~k to cut da story short,when i reach there,saw him sitting all alone at the staircase smoking ciggies.ahak..cian die!sori dear..ehehe.then went 7-eleven with him.bla3 n then decided to lepak at the Khatib park.da place so windy..then at one point he slept!oh man!i was damn bored.duno wat to do alone.wanting to let him continue sleeping but my leg hurts!he's been sleeping for da past hour on my lap n now it hurts.damn painful..ahakx~so i pushed him n straighten my legs..wooo tats better,i told myself.wakkaaka~then u knoe wat?he continued sleeping!!!..man!im bored sitting all alone looking at those fucking banglas n there u are sleeping soundly?walaueh..wakakaka~afta several HOURS sleeping,n i mean HOURS,at last!he's awake..ahakx.then we make a move afta he's totally awake.went to khatib central.bla3 then he sent me home...weee~tats da story bout yesterdae.

Haix!todae going out with my bestie...long tyme neber see her.miz u so much!!...wakakaka~i seem to b missing everybody alot lately.y ar?haiya...on da 12th im goin holidae.for about 1 week plus?walaueh...can die ar miz everybody.haix!im sure im getting sumtink for my close friends n him!hee of course..hey!!!im late!wakaka~im juz lyke da typical malays who alwaes didnt get on the ryte tyme..wakakaka~nvm still can improve.k la i wana get dress..take care aite.peace out~~!

With lots of love,
[acah]